Choices

We all make choices in life, some good, some bad, and sometimes we make the choice that is yet to be seen. Those choices are more about the hope of a positive outcome. More about the desire to have something work out in a favorable way that will bring happiness into our lives in a place that it may have been lacking. When faced with choices such as these, it can be confusing, and down right painful. It is hard to go backwards with only a hope for change but if you don't take the step back you have to live with the unknown "what if" forever. I have many "what if's"  in my life and because of the lingering questions that come with that I have experienced lingering large doubts, and these have caused stresses in my life that I so wish i did not have.
 So faced with large choices in my life now I seem to have a hard time making the hard and fast choices and once made I lack commitment to them. I just have to see the what if through to the end. And hope that this time, things will be different. I will give things a true effort, as long as my efforts are matched, and in my heart I know if It doesn't work then I really tried and if it does work I will have grown through the effort given. Then there will be no dreaded "what if" nagging anymore. I will be able to walk forward on the path given to me by the Lady and Lord without questioning my own efforts and know that I did the best I can. I hope that things work, I think they will, and I know as long as I do my part in it all, I will not have fear in my heart as I walk down the path of my life.
 I am not alone, I have wonderful people in my life that will stand with me and support me as I walk along. I know they may not all understand my "choices" but they will respect them. I respect each of my friends and family. I am blessed to have them and love them all.