There are things on a personal level I have come to learn this year. First and most important is that I can not make everyone happy all the time. I know now that not everyone will like my choices and that is okay. I can not live my life constantly worrying about things like that. Besides, what good is it to do things to make others happy if you are miserable. I also see that true friends will see that the choices you make for yourself are just that your choices and love you all the same no matter what you do!
I am also seeing that sometimes "friends" need to be just that. Just Friends, not family and other times, on occasion, there are those that in your life that make the choice to be more and become truly family. Those are the people that take you as you are. The ones that stand up for you. The ones that are there for you and see the things that make you happy and will share in that happiness and not judge you for the choices you make, be they right or wrong.
I have always been so worried about making others happy, I never wanted to disappoint anyone so I would let myself be pulled this way and that. Just so i wouldn't make others unhappy but it usually made me unhappy and that sucks, so no more of living for others. I must be happy with myself before I can make others happy.
So enough of that now.... The bright points of this year! I have my husband back! The wonderful man that loves me with all his heart and would do anything to make me happy. I will be close to my wonderful daughter and grandson very soon! All of our kids are well and healthy. I finely have the chance to start building the home of my dreams and I have been blessed to have had the personal growth to see who my true friends & family are and who those are that in time will pass out of my life without so much as a passing thought. I have learned from my choices made and I do not regret my mistakes because if I had not made them I would not be who I am now.
This time of year you hear so many people talk about resolutions and regrets. I have no regrets this year, and as far as resolutions .... I can only say this " I will love myself so that I may love others to my full ability, and I will do my best to be honest with myself so that I will make choices that reflect the desires that I have for my life and not just do things that others feel I should do. I will extend a helping hand when at all posable, but not let my hopes of helping others hurt myself or the relationships that are truly important to me. I will no longer suffer mental anguish at the hands of others because they don't like or accept things in my life. I will protect those I love and let all others go to there own devices and most importantly I will live life to its fullest and take joy in the small things!" These are my promises to myself!